I-I never wanted any of this... S-Sometimes I think it'd have been better if I'd never woken up, if I'd just s-stayed apathetic to everything. A-And I hate myself for that.

[He never doubts that he made the right choices, but if he'd never had to make them...he'd have suffered so much less. But at the same time, he'd never have made any of his friends - his family. Wasn't that the whole reason he'd decided against killing Ryoji, despite the temptation? So he wouldn't lose his family again?]